Lora please forgive me

"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong. " --Mahatma Gandhi

Well I do not know why I am waiting for tomorrow to join the gym but I am. I could go there right now and join and then start swimming even tonight. thinking about a movie though.

Reason 1:

Satuday. my dreams of running 14 miles were dashed when well I got up at 7:05. Opps. I raced out of bed ran the course backwards and only lost about 1 1/2 miles with john. Also john and I did 8 instead of the 7 so I only did 1/2 mile less so that is ok. John was really dying out there. I told him I was not going to leave him and would stick it out with him. He was not is usualy happy talkitive self. He was in hell. Now I read Lora's blog I realised this week I could in theory have ran the correct distnace with Lora and her trainaing program. My goal was to do about 14 to 15 miles though really but still. Did not see Reen. So sad. Told John she talked about coming out so he was excited. I think I let him down.

Reason 2:

I road for almost 2 hours on the bike today. I tried out a couple of trails by my house, and almost fell a few times. It has been 2 weeks I last rode and yet I been thinking about a triathlon again in only a few weeks. I need to ride alot more.

REason 3:

guess what trail I was thinking about doing too to ride weekend. Des plains trail since it feeds into the great Illinois trail. once on the great Illinois trail there is no speed limit per say unless Palatine and Busse woods were I ended up biking. In Busse I still avg 12 mph which is 4 over the legal limit. Opps. no only could have seen Lora on saturday but I could have ran over her new friend while I went omg its you. Sidenote there was a deer on the trail and my bell on my bike saved my life since I could hit the bell and the deer moved and her baby followed after her. It was so cute.

Reason 4

Running over people. I like to run people over on a bike. ok not really because then I have to clic out and I am scared to stop on my bike.

reason 5

I am thinking about a garmin edge 305 for my bike. It is very much like the garmin forerunner 305 and give more information for the bike. The candese senese is about $50 and you can get it with the edge for about $250. so you get the edge GPS for only $200 but am I crazy for waiting the better computer for my bike even with a slow bike.

Reason 6

I am thinking about quiting the Alpine Runners. I am not sure why. Maybe because Lora is not there anymore and they all look at me like why did you drive her away. I guess I just been feeling like an outsider lately and then Julie B said something to me that really made me go maybe I am not crazy. "Just that people will like you more as they get to know you. And there are some people in this club that are very superficial. and there are people that talk about others." Well I know they talk about Earl alot and never a good way and I wonder if I get the same reaction from people. A former friend of mine said a few things to me I guess it really made me think. Makes me wonder how many people would miss me if I am gone. Lora obviously every misses her. If they do not well I make sure they do. :)

NOt sure what I am going to do in my life. I guess I feel I am on the verge of great change and until I find out what it is I guess I feel a little bit on edge.

Will run for beer

"When you weigh as much as I do, the downhills are glorious!"- Kelly D. Wason

Well Beth asked me tuesday what shirt size I need 2x or 3x. I been buying mostly 3x becuase well alot of my 2x get small on me and I can not wear them again. Pretty bad huh? Well I told her that I am the incredible shrinking Todd again and that 2x would be fine. Yes I still have my goal of wearing many of my race shirts by the end of the year. I am getting there. As of this morning I was down to 297. Yeah me. I hope to be about 290 or so by howl at the moon in 3 weeks. I am making all my own foods. eating every 3 hours and I am working on working out more.

As for swimming I like swimming alot more when its 100 degrees and 90% humdity. General I love running more than swimming. For now my weakness is still the bike. This weekend will not help that since well it will be so freaked hot. I guess it goes to show I need to get out biking at like 7 am so I can get about 30 miles in before 10.

I think this weekend I will do my normal run to the high school. Run with John, and then run home

Rumors and how expensive is being a triahtlete anyways

" (When you) look at all these rumors surrounding me every day I just need some time, some time to get away from From all these rumors, I can’t take it no more My best friend said there’s one out now about me and the girl next door" - Timex Social Club

Well tuesday night I swam in good old LZ. There is a rumor though that tri was canceled because of bacteria problems. This of course concerns me as a budding triathlete. Also learnt that you have to get out :50 min of the hour until that hour so if I want to get 30 min swim in I just need to go into the lake at :20. That way its actually kinda nice to know. I do not need a watch when they will measure my time but does suck if you go in about 10 mins earlier and have to get right out again. This rumor as well as winter has got me thinking about a health club. I am thinking maybe I will join one. There is one by my work that is pretty nice. $60 a mouth 24/7 swimming all the time. It is cool that way. problem is I have no reason to go there at 3 am. :). Closest one to my house is about 30 mins away in schauburg so not sure how nice it would be in the long run. I do like the idea of swimming. I love swimming more than running. Plus there are alot of free classes that you can do. Only like Yoga costs you money and for extra $50 a month you can do all that you want of that. ok its not worth doing that but better fitness would be good. Its apart of my get a gf stragengy. I was skinny once and I had girls looking at me. I want that again screw being a obvious cylsdale. They also have 1 free yoga class a week also I guess.

Julie B was nice. Monday she emailed me and was wondering where I was. that really made me feel good considering the last time she saw me she wanted me dead. I have not seen her I think since Lora left me alone to roit and die.

I will be running in LZ this week first time in 3 weeks. It will actaully be weird to run out there. I hope John, Kim, and Reen will be there. I do miss Reen. She is nice and sweet and I need to know more about the segway.

Lora inspired me so I got really drunk last night. Funny last night I go no sleep but I feel great today. I figured out though how to pump myself with music and that really helps. its 1 pm and no caffeine and recently I would have been on my second or 3 cup of coffee or can of soda. Being drunk is great because its a good time to do minor surgery on yourself. There is one pain that will never bother me again.

My find a gf training scedule

"If one asks for success and prepares for failture, he will get the situation he has perpared for." - Florence Scowel Shinn

I finally figured out how to get a girlfriend and here it is.

Sunday
Bike for 3 hours
swim for 30 - 1 hour

Monday
Off

Tuesday
Swim for 30 - 45 mins depending on traffic
run with running club at 6:30

Wedesnday
swim for 1/2 to 1 hour before dinner
Bike 1 hour after dinner

Thursday
Run 4 miles
Bike 15 miles or so. depends on what I can do

Friday
off

Saturday
run marathon training plan.
maybe sleep/bike/swim/ or go on a date.

figure with this training program I will have a chance to get a wonderful woman.

Putting the Lake in Lake Zurich

"I wouldn't say anything is impossible. I think that everything is possible as long as you put your mind to it and put the work and time into it" - Michael Phelps [USA]
Well I did my first day of swimming. finally got to the Lake of Lake Zurich. The visiblity was nothing and there are the constant wakes from all the boats pulling jet skiers. also there is some of the water plants that get in the way. not alot that I remembered. not sure how wide the beach area is though. I htought 50 ft and the football player was thinking more like 50 yds.

I swam for like 1 hour to 1 1/2 hours. I felt good and strong. I need to go to lake michagan sometimes. so much nicer to swim. plus maybe I can do more a .5 mile swim then.

my half marathon time is in. I did it in 2:49:55. I was on a 2:30:00 pace easy at the 10 mile mark but I was still trying to finish the marathon. I was tempted to pr at the half marathon but I really did not want to risk it. My last to marathons I actaulyl held back at the half to prevent pring at the half.

as for my shorts my bicycle shorts are pretty boring being all black. not idea why lora likes me. Maybe she likes my swim suit that I had to run in. I did not know if I could wrap a towel around myself and change into my shorts or not. it was my first time and I was hoping to to see what others were doing but since I was so late I could see what others were doing.

I am so tired and sore but swimming did not effect it so that was good. I did not walk in the pirade because I was so sore. I thought about biking but I am glad I swam. swimming was fun, but I need a watch or something for it so I get a better idea how long I swam. too bad the garmin does not work in the water. I been told I need to swim for like 30 mins a day, 3 days week. I figure sunday, tuesday, and wednesday soon I will figure out something more regular.

I do hope to run ice age next year since I did not get to run it this year.

One thing I do not like about triathlons. is how the difference in distances. That spirit, short, long, olymic are more like a rough estimate.

Lora's swim and biking was shorter than mine no wonder she was faster than me. I need to get a new bike next year. I need a fancy bike like Lora and then I will kick her butt. :)

I am not gay

"Males do not represent two discrete populations, heterosexual and homosexual. The world is not to be divided into sheeps and goats. Not all things are black nor all things white." - Alfred Kinsey

I tried to live the gay lifestyle just for a day but I could not finish the gay marathon. I had to settle just for the half. I was not feeling well at the half and was getting tired. Plus it was gettgin hot and I am not good with the heat. I got there right before the race. I had about 5 mins to get line when I got my bib. There was no medals at all from what I could see. My will to finish was just not there today plus it was just getting too hot for me. I also had caffing pretty bad at like mile 3. I did end up having one of the best half marathons of my life and I would have pr'ed easy if I decided earlier to drop to the half marathon. I guess I made too many bi jokes. what is a bi person but someone who is half gay which should about the same as a half gay marathon.

so I am not gay and atleast best bi. yes I did like all the kissing. Well the lesbian kissing was nice. its been so long since I have seen 2 girls kissing. I missed it so much. I missed it as much as I missed Lora. Mayeb Lora will make me feel better and kiss a girl for me that would be the ulimate except for maybe a kiss from Lora herself. :)

This week was very stressful and I did not sleep at all. It was a challege to try to do my job this week. I had to go to Grand Rapids tueday night. My aunt's funeral was tough. It was hard to beleive she was gone because she was so full of life I should have taken thursday off also. Friday my friend said no to Lollapalooza. Not sure what I will do for Lollapalooza. I will either sell her ticket or maybe even mine and jsut maybe seen about going for just 1 day. That would be fun also.

I have decided I am going to find myself a wife. I need a girl. I mean I would not mind a right now girl but I more want a wife. I want kids. I want a family. Seeing all those couples today made me realise that is what I want. Hetrosexuals like myself can learn something about love from the homosexauls.

my tri pics are in.
http://www.brightroom.com/view_user_event.asp?EVENTID=12561&BIB=205&S=230&PWD=

t minus two days in counting

“Live life so completely that when death comes to you like a thief in the night, there will be nothing left for him to steal.” - unkown

Some people ask me why run the marathon at the gay games. 1 I think its cool. 2) only chance I would ever get to run something like that. 3) I love marathons and the medal would be unique. collecting medals has been a hobby of mine of late. I find it fun and it really something I am proud of in life.

I swam alot tuesday and wednesday in grand rapids MI. I am also thinking about running the marathon there. Its the week after chicago. It might be too soon and I got an Ultra 3 weeks later. If I do run it I would take it really slow. Then again I should take chicago slower also. I just need to get fast enough that I can take it slow. :) Maybe I want to run Grand Rapids because well I was hoping to run it to see my aunt who died then. I also found out I ahev a cousin who lives jsut south of it and it would be fun plus I can stay at her house. It may cost me less than $100 for that race and get me 1 state closer to all 50.

Well saturdays high will be in the upper 70s. Its going up but still in the 70s so that is good. As long as it stays in the 70s I will be ok. 80s would be potentially dangerous and 90s espcially highy would be sucide.

1 issue with swimming I have is the lack of it. All the training programs I been reading about says like 30 mins of swimming. Well I am looking at that and going that tri training will get in the way of marathon training. Then I realised it does not ahve too. I can either swim in the morning and run at night or I can swim and then run. So swim for 30 mins and then go and run for 30 mins. since I tend to ahve to run 5 miles and I can run at a 12 min pace I just need to do the swim and finish the rest of the time at a run. It will also help me my muscles for switching between sports.

I also been told 1 reason I am so slow on a bike is because I do not bike enough and that I need to bike atleast 3 hours a day once a week. I am thinking he might be right. I am thinking about going to either busse woods or the parirre trail and maybe go biking for 3 hours. Its not speed up distance which will then turn into speed at a short distance. There is truth to this I think. I will try it next weekend.

Welcome to Marathon Week.

"Life is the jailer, death the angel sent to draw the unwilling bolts and set us free. " - James Russel Lowell

Welcome to marathon week. On a sad note. My aunt passed away on friday. She was 70 years old. Died of a brain emermism we think. She was very active. He had a family reunion 5 days before her death so most of us got to see her and send time with her for 1 last time. The reunion was suppose to be the weekend when she died but it was moved do to my cousin on the other sides 1 year anniversy/ wedding reception. She had the brain thing early and was blind in 1 eye and going blind in the other. I am just glad she died before she went completely blind and stopped enjoying life. I will not be running at the McHenry River run on tuesday night instead I will be travelling to Grand Rapids, MI for the funeral on wednesday. I really liked me aunt even though I never got to see her much. She was worried about me doing the tri since another nephew of hers died that way. that helped me to be more determined to do it and finish it.

I been not getting enough sleep, eating poorly, and its way to hot. If its 72 degrees at 5:00 am again I am not running the marathon. This weekend would been way too hot for it and I will not risk death in order to get my medal. I may be a a medal whore but somethings are not worth it. I am going to stop at whole foods on the way home to find better food to eat. this way I can make my own lunch and have something decent to eat. I am determined not only to get my weight down but to have more energy. My slow bike may not be as much as the bike as it could be my own body working against me. My weight takes alot of work to do anything.

Good news. Saturdays predicted high is 79 degrees. I wish it was a little cooler but maybe the high of 72 during the race will be much nicer than having it 72 at the start of the race.

Called about a gym with pools open 24/7. I always think that is kinda silly since most people will not be swimming at 3 am. I figure though if I get here by 6:00 am I mayt be able to swim freee from other people in the lane. that is my hope. Other option would be do it at 4:00 pm. Then again I am waiting on the price.

I hope to get down below 300 again for this marathon. I am praying for a cool day.

Tonight I try swimming in Lake Zurich. I am going to see how that goes. I figure I will stay off my feet for the rest of the week and only cross train. I am determined also that my next try on sept 9th I will finish below 2 hours.

Everybody loves you when your tri.

I thought about trying the dualthon instead. I thought about switching or evening doing jsut the Half marathon. I so would ahve won my age division if they had it for that. They did not. only 22 people in it. I guess apart of me did not want to do the dualathlon. I guess I would have felt like I was letting myself down then. The swim was something I wanted to do. I do not know why. I did not train for it but if Lora could do it I could do it. My goal of course would be to beat Lora's time.

First the results

Lake Michagan triathlon

Total time swim trans 1 bike time trans 2 run
3:08:29 56:02 6:06 1:13:14 3:06 50:02

Swimming:

What can I say. I got the bunch of us laughing as we went into the water with the statement. "Oh yeah how do you swim?". What they did not realise that I was seriously asking. I never thought I was a bad swimmer but my joke about being last in the swim including amoung the Olympic distance was not a real joke I said it a jokely way. yeah I was not even 1/4 way done and was struggling so I remember the girl who will not be named (Lora) talked about the backstroke. I travelled most of my distance doing it. I found myself weaving. nothing like swimming and finding yourself heading to shore. 1 guy I saw stood up and ran andtleast for awhile. I do not know how that kinda thing works. I was shallow enough that my foot did touch the bottom and I just pushed myself back up headed for deeper water and continued on swimming. I thoght about faking swimming and run but I figured that would be cheating so I did not do it. on the turn to shore as soon as I could walk I did and when I got out of the water I was beyond exhausted. I got frustrated a few times during the race when my right calf and other time when both my feet crapped up. It frustrating and painful and I was worried they would see it and pull me out of the water. I almost kissed the ground when it was over. .5 miles in the water is alot harder and farther than I expected.

Biking:

I took my time during the first transition. I was resting and trying to get sand off my foot. I did not bring water for that and I should have gotten that. it might have better better after the bike to have 2 socks it might have been better. I also liked it. I mean I had a few spots that were hard. I aveged almost 13 mph on my bike and that is good for me. I felt when it was done I could ahve done 2 more laps. I was glad though when it was done because running is my strong point. It was a 5 miles down and back. 3 laps total. The hills were not too steap and ones that were was quite short. I also know I really need more bike time and a faster but but I really ejoyed it. It was fun. plus I got to ride with alot of the oympic people so I was not so alone and I knew I would finsih it. I enjoyed it and I did not push myself way too hard.

Running:

Well my right calf was hurting kind by the tendon. That was not good. It was so hot and I decided not to really run it. I mostly walked it. I did run for my photo and when I saw the end. The run was so hot but the calf hurting and the heat I think the swim was even more enjoyable.

Question is would I do it again? yes. definitely yes but I need to train more. like follow a schudule. my parents think I would run less marathons but that is not true. I will still do my long runs but I might bike and swim during my tempo type runs. I will figure something out. Wtih all the heat it would be better to swim than to run anyways. I know in an 1 hour I swim a 1/2 mile. :). Will I do i next time with Lora who knows. I am thinking about lake genva for next time. Alot more hills even one they call the killer hill but the time is good and I think it would be fun again.

Lazy

"Ambition is a poor excuse for not having enough sense to be lazy." -Charlie McCarthy

I been lazy. I have not worked out since saturday. Sure if was a tough day but with the cousins over it was hard. How do you say no to some the cutest girls I have met. They reminded me why I want my own children. I have put on weight but also my water weight is up to 52%. When I got the scale it was only at about 40%. I dropped 10 lbs with that scale but percent water going up also which is a very good sign.

I did have fun with the garmin. I set it up and maybe over set it up. I really need to go for a run and then work on it and set it up even better again. I really do like it so far. I also figured out how not to lose all my stats from my old garmin. That was the tricky part since it wants you to have a seperate profile for each watch, I figured it out. yeah me.

My mom is concerned about me drowning. It its true I really have not trained for the swimming. I just recently found out I am kind able too. Opps. Nothing like deciding on a race at the last minute. I have to do this because well Lora did it and I have this need to do everything Lora does but do it alot more. I have done 5 marathons and she has only done 1. Man what is her problem. :)

Emily and Anna did make this cute thank you note for me and my mom but since my name is like on it 15 times I think it was more to me. I will try to post it later. So stay tuned for that.

Tonight I bike 15 miles with a group from the Alpine Runners. It should be fun. It was last time plus I can use more bike time. Interesting though I was reading that normal casual peddles you get like only 25% of your power. No wonder I was so slow since well the clipless give you like 100% or maybe better way to look at it is old peddles make you work 4 times hard than the clipless. No wonder Lora is so fast. She is an awesome bike and cool peddles.

Right now I am trying to figure out what 2 girls from alpine I would want to do a 3some with. So far all I have is Stephanie on the Bike. If I did the swimming then the running should be pretty easy to figure out but I think I want to stick with the running means I need to find a good swimmer. Any suggestions?

For love of Lisa

"Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies." - Aristotle

Emily my cousin's 7 year old daughter was pouting last night when I told her I had to leave for an hour so I could go to the I-Runs meeting. I sat through 50 mins of shoes and then I got to sit through Lisa for 1 hour. This is the Lisa that fixed me and Reen. She is so beautiful and sweet. I am kicking myself in the butt for not asking if she will be my new Lora. The rate Lora is injuried maybe Reen will be the new Lora and Lora will be the new Reen. Beth I think did mention in passing either I could run with them or even help out but if it was help it was not too serious. besides I have bigger goals in mind. I was hoping it was going to be Terry Nicola since well he is the man. Lisa did give me a sterch idea for this condition that has been bothering and you know what? I stretch that way and wow that is the exact area that has been bothing me. She figured out why I do my 6 mile hop which turned into the 3 mile then 6 mile hop. Lora and John both seen it. I have had it since chrismas. I know exact what is it and now what to do about it.
I also figured out why it did not bother me until recently. I love Lisa. I wonder if she can date people she meets at clinics. Also if she is married I wonder if he lets her see guys on the side.

I said goodbye to my cousin and her family. Her kids were so sad to have to say goodbye to me. They wanted me to go to American girl today with them but I could not go. I had to work and been saving any time off in case I had to go and see Terry Nicholia. I been playing games with them and they want me to read to them every night. Yeah I been told if any single girl saw me with them I would have an instant date. I knew I should have taken them to Yogis last night but it was getting late by the time I got home, and they do not need a huge sugar high right before they have to go to bed. Yep I got a way with women as long as they are under the age of 12.

I got the 305 and the cool thing is that it found the GPS in my house. OMG I love the new 305 for far. I can not wait to try it out tonight.

This weekend is my first Trialthon and next weekend is the gay games marathon. Remember you have to tri before you bi. Another way to look at it is that you tend to have a 3some before you go gay.

We represent the lollipop kids

"Todd is a really good cousin." - Anna age 9 first cousin once removed.

first I like to state that I only ran 14.5 miles and swam for about 3 hour. most of that casual but I did take about some laps. I turned down some running because I needed to focus on the swimming. with the spirit tri this weekend I need to get swimming. Today 2 days of swimming does not make for good training.

This weekend was the family reunion. My cousin Jean and her family been staying at my house since Sunday. Her kids just love playing with me. Anna is 9 and emily is 7. They are both so cute. Sunday we went to the zoo and last night we went to the park. I did not expect them home so fast so I thought I pretty much had the evening to myself. I was wrong. Zoo was fun but the jelly fish were not around. We did go to the douphin show.

Its sad though that their child Anna has alot of medical problems and Emily I guess is having a hard time with the fact she is adopted. I think she loves my cousins but she wants her mom to love her also. Its interesting even though your biological parents may never be there a child so wants the love from them. I understand why she was put up for adoption and maybe someday she will understand also. I hope so.

Tonight I run and I have to go to the injury clinic since well I want to see about my leg. not sure who will be there but hopely it will be someone good. I guess its good to pay your money.

2 weeks I will be running on the lake front. Maybe I will even get to see Lora a bit. Who really knows. I am starting much farther south than her but we also starting at 6 am so who knows. I just hope her group gives us room to run.

Help Wanted

Help Wanted
Posistion Lora.
Appilicant must be a beautiful female between the ages 18 - 55. Must be able to run long miles. Must not be married but long term bfs ok as long as they are not jealous type. People with infinite patience is a plus. Must love to run. Appicant must also be willing to run between 11 - 12 min pace. Must be funloving and enjoy craziness wacky people. perivous marathon finishes a plus. Name of Lora is a plus but is not nesscarry.

I figured with Lora gone I might as well find her replacement. Will Kim be the next great Lora? Only time will tell. Since Lora is gone my aunt is concerned that I am going to be commiting suicide. Another nephew of hers on the other side died in a triathlon and he was not perpared for the swimming and neither am I. This was 20 years ago and I do not think saftey was what it is today but still. I think .5 miles I should be ok even if I only do the back stroke the whole way there like Lora.

Saturday something bad happen. I lost my Garmin 301. I looked everywhere. I got up at 5 am so I could get going at 5:30 since I had relatives coming over. The idea was to get 8 miles in before everyone got there and then to run with John for 6 miles and then run home for another 3 miles. Well I only got 2 miles in. I ran with the 7:30s for like 2 steps but did run with the 9:30 group for 1/2 mile. It felt good being with the pack. Thinking maybe I shoiuld try to do that on tuesday night Run 9:30 for as long as I can ands then backoff from there. I figured with Lora gone no reason to hold back anymore. Good news I have a garin 305 on order now and should get it Monday or tuesday. hopeing early enough on tuesday.

Since Lora is gone and my swimming this weekend in a small pool was decent I am going to try the tri. I figured worse comes to worse I will have them pull me out of the water. Next weekend is the gay games so that should be fun. Yep Lora may see me out there since we are potenitally using the same running path there. hopely in the next 2 weeks I will earn 2 medals 3 if I win at mchenry but I doubt that will happen. not since I turned 30.

Sure I may be stupid and kiling myself but no Reen and no Lora. John is cool but its not the same. I can not sing to him beautiful songs or tell them how beautiful he is Just not my style. Girls are alot of fun.

day before the day before my long run

"may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you." - Walt Disney

This saturday I have a 16 - 18 miler. I took last night off from working out since I done 17 miles already this week and I figured I would do atleast 6 more tonight. Last night at 10 pm Juli A wanted to personally invite me to Harmons for bike riding. How can I say no to Juli? She is so sweet, kinda and well pleasant to look at. I did strech last night. I am making it my life's plan to strech everyday. Yes my neck is still sore from Yoga. I hate it when you start something new so you accidently over do it.

I am kinda scare though of my new pedals. Lora made the clipless pedals look so easy and I bet once I get the hang of them I will be like wow those are easy but for now I am scared. What can I say once I could run again I kinda forgot about the bike. Then again I also spent last night looking for a road bike. I have time to train for a half iron man but I do not have the bike for it. I think today I will sign up for the wussy olympic distance. Saying this I have no idea how far I can swim but I think I can do it. After all I had a great teacher. me.

Also weight is going down. new all time low since I dated my last big ex. Nothing like finally losing the ex gf weight. I also remember to make my lunch and breakfest so that is good also. Who knows I could be just dehydrated but I am confident that I can make this wait more and more stick. Even if I am at this weight now I am sure it will not be long before I go man why am I stuck at this weight now.

next weekend there is a triathlon in kenosha I am thinking aboiut competeing in. its on July 15th and I have to go past there on my why to my cousin reception plus I can get my first tri medal. I thinking about doing it but I am not sure. If I do it would be only the spirit. I also do not have a wetsuit. Below is the link to the race. They also have a 5k, 10k, and half marathon.

http://www.lakegenevasports.com/Lake_MI_Tr/Lake_MI_Tri.htm

Tonight

Fireworks was cool. Espcially the pieace that hit me. when I was a kid I got so scared of them once. Well this time I was not scared and things were hitting me. I sat with the Apline Runners. Medium sized Ron gave me some good advice like do a half iron man. He said always go for the distance. What a cool guy. :)

I did 1/2 mile short of a half marathon today for today. yeah me. that + 30 mins yoga and I did the same work as a half. Beth things the July marathon I should be able to do. yeah she is kissing my ass for making me miss Lora. I ran into alot of people I knew from high school. Man people can look so different. Pat and beth son Jesse was totally different. Have not seen him in like 12 years or so.

I do not know what distance I will sign up for. I am thinking Olympic because well I hate to start too short and I hate any race with spirit in them since I am not a sprititer.

what is love baby don't hurt me no more

well good news. I was upset because the gay guy was like there is no finisher medal for the marathon but for us direct registy people we get a special medal I guess that they are voting on tursday. The guy seemed to be excited when I told him I am a medal whore and I would do anything for a medal.

top 5 women of alpine is getting nearly decided on but there is still time to get me to change my mind.

Today I ran 5.5 mile. I did it pretty well. I did it at the heat of the day in be sure when july 22nd I am am ready for the heat. This weekend my family on my dad's side is getitng together so that would be fun. I ahve to put in about 16 to 18 miles though. next weekend is my cousins wedding reception in the US so I will go to that. My sister and I decided to bike around our old stomping grounds. oh yeah and before the run I did yoga for about 20 mins. man it is tough

Stilling trying to decide on my tri distance. half iron man is out. lucky I remember that lake zurich had a lake for free swimming.

very excited

IO am very excited. I found a race that is perfect timing for me. Its Sept 9th. Lake Geneva tri. They have medals for all finishers and I can do a spirit oylimpic or half ironman. am I ready for a half iron man?

"you don't do what's best for your body, you're the one who comes up on the short end. " - Julius Erving

Yesterday instead of the Bike I did a walk. Its ok even though I walked for about 30 mins longer than I wanted to since I beleive I should have only done 1 hour. Still I love burning 1000 cals a day from something. I do not walk much during work so its good I do what I can when I can.

I am determined to learn Yoga. My Yoga for flexiblity I got awhile ago is too far. Not only really tireing and well hard to get start with but in the opening stretch is does about 12 different poses in like 2 mins and then repeats. I can not figure them out fast enough. I think it will be good in the future but I need to start slower. Yesterday on my walk I went to Best Buy. REason why I walked than biked because I was planning on getting some stuff. One of the things I got was a new Yoga DVD and I got Yoga for Dummies today. I figured I bound to find one that I can do that is not too hard. Maybe LZ park district will have Yoga classes soon that would be cool. They are like right by my house. Most of the time I seen they are at mile 9 water stop. Talk about conveniate for me right now.

I feel as though I have an injury coming on. Something serious if I do not work on my streching everyday. That is why Yoga is becoming so important to me right now. Something even more important than biking. I know if I can get my msucles loose again I will be ok but the problem is they are so tight. My friend also mentioned how I am low on Zinc and I got some of that also today.

Reen is right

ok ok. Reen was the only good thing about the day. That and I tried out my news peddles they are weird and kinda scary but cool I bet once I get used to them. The magic for the bike is still not there for me though. Funny becuase I hated running as a kid and loved the bike. I think its the social part that I really like. That is why Lora leaving hurts. She is so much fun. Atleast I will have Reen. next weekend like 16 miles or so. Maybe 18. porbably should do 18.

day maybe the worse day of my life

"I've had a wonderful time, but this wasn't it."
- Groucho Marx (1895-1977)

saturday was not a good day for me. Everything in my life crashed before my eyes. I was so sad. I jsut sat in my room and I could not seem to get myself to do anything. The cubs blew another game in the 9th inning again. Of course it was to the Soxs so it is not completely bad. The Sox could use the win more honestly. With interleague play we can not really afford 2 good teams in the town.

I realised Stephanie is not interested in me. Atleast that is the feeling I got. I feel more like she is avoiding me now. oh well. Julie B is mad at me but what else is new. Valde is back to his training ways. ok that is not really bad news but I like to give him a hard time and feeling I could beat him at milwakee is always cool. Most of all though is that Lora is leaving me. Since she will be gone I decided to go ahead and train for the gay games. I might as well. I have nothing else better going on really. I signed up. I figured Lora was the only thing that was going to keep me back from training for that marathon. With her gone I might as well go gay. I still have John but I know he is going to be busy with Kim. I figured I would have pushed myself with Lora though. Oh well. I love Beth I think she is great but she took away my Lora from me.

like last tuesday or the week before that Pat though asked if Iknew his daughter or was like I did nt know you did.

ok the day was not horrible but it was not a good day either.